The beauty of these social media platforms is that you can go back and look at old posts without muh effort. Since I decide to eat coffee ice cream right before bed, ive spent most of this evening awake looking through posts from about 4 years ago.
2008 was the year my mom was diagnosed with leukemia. I don't remember much about that year except that it was painful and so tiring. I have no idea how I mad or through that time working full time and going to the hospital every single day. I don't know how I did it at all. I look back at that time and see a young 23 year old trying her best to be the rock her mom needed.
I made it through that year of hospital visits and chemo. I made it through the election of our first black president. I made it through the recession and I made it through my mothers death.
Some how, some way... I made it through.
The years following were not much easier, everyday I had to push through a new milestone without my best friend. I worked hard and persevered. I found healing in therapy and sought comfort in friends. I traveled out of the country. I started dating my now husband. I became an Aunt to the most amazing boys ever. I moved out on my own. I got engaged then married.
I made it through... I know I'm not done yet. I know there is so much more ahead. As I figure out what I want to do professionally and learn how to build a healthy marriage. As my family grows... I know that it won't be easy.
I look to my mom for inspiration, to be my example of strength and faith. Because of her and the many strong women I have as examples, I know that I can do this. I know that I'm destined for something great and something meaningful. I won't just make it through, I'll soar.
This life isn't just about coasting, it's about embracing those you love, and living each moment as if it's your last.
I can do this and I will.
